I have a comforting connection with Deer.

Ever since I was a little girl, there has always been something about deer that stand out to me.

While driving in the car with my mom, she used to say, "LOOK AIM, DEER!!!" She would point, and everytime, I'd look, and more often than not they would be those little fake deer that people put in their yards. It would drive me nuts when she did that.

I don't know what it is, or why I love them so much, but I have had some really strange encounters with them, and thankfully none of them involve being hit by my car.

For the most part, I see them when I need to. In the strangest of times, in the weirdest places, I have encounterd one or two, or when I am lucky, I've seen whole clans of them. They always seem to know I am there, and they stop, turn around, and stare--fixated, calm, and curious.

This photo was taken over a year ago, but I saw it on another blog that I started when my son was first born. I was writing about the compromise that Alex and I made, and though I hated it initially, and then after the fact, and you know, I still really do hate the fact that we did that, but honestly, if I wouldn't have agreed to him having the power to have a night off once a week, then I wouldn't have found my own level of recovery. He wouldn't have hit his low, and WHO KNOWS where I would be, let alone my son. It is SO STRANGE how things work out. So strange.

Deer represent something more in my life. Something so connected to God, Nature, a nd the Universe, that when I am next to them, I feel perfectly content. Strangely, they always remind me of my big sister Lara. I never got to meet her, but I surely know who she is, and she has a big role in my life. She is my guardian angel, and we share many moments. I truly cannot explain how that is--but it is.

Do any of you have this kind of connection with nature?? I'd love to know I'm not the only one...

<3 Amelia