I have been working very hard lately to take care of me, my soul, and I. Every day, I take the time to read literature from Al-Anon, or from CoDA. I attend both groups on a weekly basis, and through them I have learned so much.
The serenity prayer is something that I have come to use moment to moment in times of worry, discomfort, and fear.
"Dear Lord,
Please Grand Me the SERENITY to ACCEPT the things I cannot CHANGE,
The COURAGE to change the things I CAN,
and the WISDOM to know the DIFFERENCE."
And when I am struggling with those things that I cannot change, I say more simply:
"I can't, God can, I'll let him."
Today has been a good day, but some moments are more difficult than others. One in particular had my heart pounding, head reeling, and stomach churning, yet instead of letting those thoughts and feelings CONSUME me, I said the serenity prayer. I quickly realized, that even though the conversation on the phone that I was having wasn't sounding like something I agreed with, I have no POWER over the other person who is talking, and I cannot CHANGE them, or their thoughts.
Because of that simple little prayer, I was able to detach from the phone call, just enough to still be able to listen, but also enough so that I didn't let my head or my heart get angry. I accepted his words, listened intently, and tried to empathize with his reasoning.
I am scared for him, but I know that all is in divine order, and because of that divine intervention, I feel safe, and comfortable with my actions. I am happy to say that, no matter what happens, it is in God's best interest. God doesn't let things happen, without already knowing what the consequences are.
Something I like to remember when facing a challenge:
"If God puts you through it, God will bring you through it, you just have to have FAITH."
How do you feed your soul? Are you spiritual, or not? Do you have faith in a Higher Power, that allows you to let go of the burden of worry and fear? Let me know, I'd love to hear from you!
<3 Amelia
