Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi

It has been a month or so since I last blogged.


I don't know why I felt compelled to do so today. Maybe because I don't know who to talk to about my feelings.

I am sad. I might just be pms-ing, which is a lame excuse, and right now it's ok with me. I want to write for me, and others to read. Some times it includes the low moments.Hopefully, tomorrow, I will be seeing and feeling differently.

I have been trying to see the light on my future path, yet more and more dirt and sparkles keep getting thrown on it. The dirt and sparkles being things I don't like and do like. Those specks make it hard to see the truth. Those specks are provoking emotions, wherein emotion has no place.

I know that I need to pray for an answer. I know that I could be shown a sign, given a Yes or a No. Maybe I won't receive an answer at all, and that will be a sign to wait. The main thing is, I have to pray.

"When we pause to pray, we are opening ourselves to peace."

And when we pray, we realize that what we want isn't what He may want. In those answers lies out path. In those answers he shows us his plan. It is our choice to live in a way that we follow his plan, with love. It is acceptance.

Christmas Break, at last!

My Dear Followers,

You may have noticed that I took a break from posting over the weekend. There were several reasons for that.
1. I was sick with the stomach bug on Saturday.
2. I worked a 12 hour shift on Sunday.
3. Any spare time was spent cramming for my Physics final. 

Well, Monday is here, my physics final is over, and I am a free woman!! Well, actually, only until January 7th, but by then I am sure my spirit and desire for knowledge will be revived.

For now.... I have  a things I would like to remark on.

1. I am so thankful for the generous support of my friends and family, as I have combined working and studying into a very long, (yet really short) semester. The help that was given, the encouraging words that were spoken, and the kind hugs are all wonderful memories of the amazing support group that I know I will ALWAYS have standing behind me. What an amazing feeling! Mother nature even sent a flock of geese to give me a warm goodbye, as I was leaving the Ivy Tech  parking lot this morning. I bet there were at least 100 of them.

The beautiful flock of geese, saying "Bon Voyage!" as I left the parking lot after my final exam. It's blurry, but I had to share.

 2. Now that I am a free soul, available to the wants and whims of my heart, I will be making a "Want To Do" list, rather than my normal "To Do" list for this break.  Here is the beginning. Notice, also, that there are no numbers assigned to anything because there is absolutely no importance place on any specific item. I want to do all equally. Though the order is what came out of my head first. Maybe that is an indicator.

• bake GF bread (yes, I will wait for you, Mom!)
• bake COOKIES
• take Alexzander to see SANTA and get a pic.
• shop for family
• send gifts
• make holiday cards
• clean roon
• clean office
• find chem books and open them
• study chemistry
• register for chemistry at IUN
• spend time with Chrissy at The Heart Box Studio, drink tea, and art (verb, yes.)
• clean out garage to park my car in there before... (oh, shoot, please don't jinx me!!)
•  work on my BLOG
• order bridesmaid dress for my big's wedding (Sorry, Big, I know I'm awful...)
• wwwwworkout! (say it like the LMFAO song, "I'm sexy and I know it")

Okay, well this is all the stuff I really WANT to do.  The stuff I MUST do is kind of incorporated in there too, but it's really because I want to do that too. Les Brown says that in order to get what you want, you truly have to be invested in it. Well, I want all of those things done, so I WANT to invest my time into them!!! Procrastination can be an issue for me, but I realize that the more I do it, the harder it is to not do it. The less you do it, the easier it is not to. WEIRD.

Hmmmmmmmm......So what to do first??? BAKE COOKIES :) But, since I'm writing this post, is that actually working on my blog? WHO CARES.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Really, I think this chica has gone loco.

 I'm going to go walk around the house in some hott pants and a bikini top, bake cookies and whatever else hits me at the moment. Why, because that is what I want to do!!!

What are you going to do this holiday season? Is it really what you WANT to do? Remember, you control what makes you HAPPY!!!!

<3